So, as I sit here at the computer, wanting to type up something interesting  for everyone to read, I find myself at a loss for words.  A state that unfortuntely, is not usually common for me. I always have something to say, something I want to say, and I can almost always, think of something to talk about. However, lately, I have found myself at a loss for words in different situations. Usually, when I hear something, something else will quickly come to mind, and my mind starts a rapid cycle of all the things I could say. But lately, there has been nothing.
Over the last few weeks, I have found myself worrying about different situations in my life. If I am at school, I am worrying about my homework and all the things I need to get done before the weekend. If I am at University on the weekend, I am worried about school and all the things that I need to get done for school for the next week. And when I am not worrying about school or University, I find myself worrying about a million other things.
I am a worrier( if that is even a word, ha. If not, I just made it up. :) , a planner and to many degrees a perfectionist. I like to know how things are going to work, and I also like to know why things are going to work the way they are working, and if they aren't working they way the should be, why? Ha. yes, I sometimes tend to drive myself crazy. But that's me, and I know that I need to work on fixing that, and during the last week God has been speaking to me about it too.
As I look back on my past year( 2010), I look back and see all the situations in which I worried about something that needed to work out, and I didn't know how it was going to. But then, I also look back and see that during all those times, God was working little by little, step by step, moment by moment, to make sure that my problem had a perfect solution. He showed me throughout the last year that, I don't need to worry about anything, even the situations and problems that to me seem impossible. He showed me that I don't have to worry because, He has everything, absolutely everything, under control.
Despite the fact that He is ruling the world and making sure that the sun rotates at perfect speed around the planet, despite the fact that billions of people all over this earth are trying to get His attention and despite the fact that He has to be in all places at once, doing a million different things at the same time, He has my world under control. He is the master juggler and has His act so put together, that He doesn't miss a beat. He hears me when I call to him, and He knows the state of my heart. When I am worried and afraid, He sees it and comes to my rescue. He gently whispers and reminds that, : " I don't need to worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow will worry about itself". He reminds me that, all I need to do is trust in Him, completely trust in Him, and that if I do that, He will make sure that everything else works out. It's a promise, and it's one that I know can trust.