Today, while sitting in my Philosophy class and listening to my teacher go on and on about Religious Philosophy, something caught my attention. He was talking about people saying they are having faith, and yet they reason and analize whatever they are supposed to be having faith about and believing in. He continued to talk about the fact that technically, that isn't possible because, if you are really having faith about something, you can't be stopping to analize and reason about it. The simplicity and yet profoundness of that simple statement got to me, and even in the middle of a boring and hot philosophy class, God began to speak to me.
As I began to think about what my Profesor had said, I heard a small voice  inside of me begin to speak to me about that. Having " faith" and trying to analize and creat logic out of what is being told to me or asked of me. They are two completely different things,  two things that many times I do when it comes to things in life that I need to simply have faith about. So many times I say that I am believing God about something, and yet I stop and think about it and start to make myself doubt God's power. Time and time again I have heard God promise  me  something, or read a promise for me in His word.  Yet, I always find myself stopping to question it, to analize it, to try to find reason or logic in what He has promised, especially when it doesn't make sense. I try to get it to make sense, but really, when does God's greatness truly make sense to me? He is supreme, powerful and almighty, He is the one who makes this world spin in perfect orbit, the one who calms the seas, and yet, here I am, trying to reason with  and analize  the things He says. I was reminded today that it will never work.
God showed me in those few moments that, I can't truly trust Him, if I am going to try an analize and create out of what He says. I can either have faith, or I can try to analize, but I definetly can't do both. I can't do it, because it's wrong.
God doesn't ask me to have faith in Him, in His word, and in who He says He is going to be, just so  I can stop and try to find ways in which, what  He asks of me, don't make sense. Like when He tells me that giving is better than recieving, or when He tells me to love my enemies and do good to those who hurt me. They are things that don't make sense, and yet, If I trust Him, they turn out to make complete sense.
When I trust, and have Faith, true and sincere Faith, when I don't question what He is doing or why it makes no sense. When I simply rest in His promises and believe that He will do what He says He will do, and He will be who He says He will be. I find joy and peace, true joy and peace, and I can begin to  rest in the promise that; " All things will work together for my Good".