Today. A day that marks a new landmark in my journey called life, a day in which I am once again venturing into somewhat unknown territory and have nothing more to hold on to then knowing that God will continue to be faithful. Today, I went and registered for University classes, and ths time.....I am officialy in and yes, I will actually be able to study. No, it's not medical school to become a Doctor anymore, and I know that for some reason, God had different plans for me than medical school. I am now officaly registred to begin University next Saturday to become a Highschool Teacher, which is a three year program at one of the Universities in Coban. It's a new start, a new beginning, and a new chapter in my life. I am excited and yet aprehensive at how it will be.
I will be in a non-christian setting with non-christian friends, hearing very bad vocabulary and just being in an ambience that is anything but Christ centered or even close to it. I will be surrounded by people living egocentricaly for themselves, and seeking only to please and satisfy their needs. It's easy to get frustrated, to start pointing fingers and judging. I found myself doing so today while I was standing in line for hours trying to regsiter for classes. I heard a group of guys talking about dirty stuff and using an even dirtier language. Girls dressed in inapropiate ways, and people doing things in a manner that shouted the message that they were only thinking of themselves. I mean, I know we live in a very unperfect world, and I see it all around me in so many differnet things. But, being at University on Saturday's definetely reminds me of how much the people around me need Jesus.
Do any of them even stop to think that they do? Probably not many of them do, and the ones that do, don't know how to go about doing it anyway. Am I going to go in to class every Saturday and preach at them? No, I won't. But I know that what I can do is......love them when the opportunity presents itself. Not judging them or pointing my finger because, really, many times my own sin is no less than the different things they do with their lives. I am no different, and I have no right to act superior than any of them. My actions will speak louder than any words I could possibly think to say. Seeing Christ reflected in me and through me, is the best message I can present them with. Seeing true love...Christian love....God centered love towards them and other people around me, is what will really speak to their heart.
I pray with all my heart, that somehow God will use me. That, in some small way, I would be able to affect one or two people's hearts and give them something to think about. I don't want to change the world, but if I can change the way one or to people view the meaninig and purpose of living. If I can let them know that there is more to life and that's Jesus, I have made a change that will last for eternity. On my own I can do nothing, but with God's grace, I can do everything. I pray that He would be with me and would guide my actions. That He would puit the people in my path that are supposed to be there. That like Esther I could say, " For such a time as this" God has me in that University. That if I am supposed to help lead someone to Jesus, that I wouldn't miss that call and that the words from this song could be true in my Christian walk.
" Just love them like Jesus, carry them to Him. His yolk is easy, His is burden is light. I don't need the answers to all of life's questions. Just know that He loves them and stay by their side. Love them like Jesus."